I sure do want to see you and hear what you have to say to what I have done
everyone tells
me I have done wrong do you think so? Somebody came to see me today far someone
else this is the third time he has sent to me and I have said “no”
each time the 3rd tips out
they always told me. Maybe he will quit now. I sent him word that a burnt
child dreads the
fire. Yes I am as lonely as he can be but am better off than with him. Guess
I am all right
as long as I have such good friends. But get fooled sometimes and dont know
who is
friends. But on never has fouled me yet and do hope Y____ wont. Did C.L. think
A.E.
and E.B. treated me fair? I know they did nat but them and the good lord far
it. Do you
know of anybody I would be likely to get in the house with me that are alright?
I must have
someone of coarse B__ would make the arrangements if I did he would nat have
it. What
made you and J.S. think I would expose you? I thought you had a little confidence
in me
am sorry you have nat what have I done that made you lose it? You said that
I said I did
nat want you far a friend now you know I never said it. I said I did nat want
you any
longer as you was long enough and you did nat misunderstand me either how
did you?
“Huff” said on that line if you could help me to get C.L. sympathy
and him give off some
of his percent I sure would appreciate it. I have worked here far 13 ina halp
years and
getting about $1.00 and him getting $1.50 far 4 or 5 days work. I am nat rambling
and
would nat say this to many but I need it so bad and you have helped me and
the thought
you might in this. Dont let him know what I am saying about it. I believe
it is going to
snow and me out of wood as nearly some may have to expect Mr. E. Yet than
I would
have plenty to get wood far. HA HA I know that you think me A____ anyway so
it dont
matter what I say, does it? Hope to see and talk with you some time. By. By.
as ever
January 12, 1917 Friday
I sure do feel bad about the way things have gone tonight. What do you think
of me
anyway? I never even said one word of appreciation far your kindness to me
when I am
doing anything that I think would cause remarks to be made about me. It unnesses
me till I
cant think of anything. If I could have invited you in like I did a year ago
and talked as we
did than, I would nat feel as I do, I dont guess I will any tonight you said
one thing in
regard to the one I was telling you about that I dont understand. You spake
as though you
thought I had been with him as with you. Now surely, surely you do nat think
that . I never
would sleep anymore, If I knew you thought that. I never done one thing in
my life in his
presence to make him think me unclean, oh it is all because of what A.E. has
told and to
think I have to suffer so much on the strength of it. I hope the good lord
will fargive him
far it. I do. oh! such a nice gift and yet I cant use it now. It is the most
beautiful thing any
one has ever gave me!!! You ought to have got something cheap and nat have
got it far it
cost to much. Well there is this about it, it sure is good to look at if I
dont wear it. You
must nat think of my little sorry gift but the giver. It means true friendship.
If there had
never been anything said about us I could be different with you. Please dont
think me
ungreatful, do you? If I thought you had anything immoral in view I would
never even
peak to you again but somehow I feel like you do this because you know how
bad I have
been treated. Oh! I do wish you would leave off Whiskey it will ruin you yet.
I have been
praying far you tonight and J.S. to be good By.By. A_____
I will send these to let you know of what I have been thinking since you was
here I ought
nat guess as I have nat heard from you but I want you to know I am nat without
feelings as
you think me.